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Wednesday, 08 July 2009

Sunday, 05 July 2009

  • i should be otherwise engaged, counting sheep, sawing logs, or the like...



    ...but, thought it was about time i checked in.

    happy fourth of july! it's no longer the fourth in ontario, which is where i currently preside, but, my computer's clock tells me it is still 10:30p on the west coast, and seeing as though my body is seemingly still functioning within that time zone, i'm running with it.

    this week, i've celebrated canada day twice. wednesday, we threw a party at home, hosting a group of about 30... yesterday,  my first day back in ontario, john and julie had a big gathering of family [along w/ the neighbors, mattandjody and myself] at their place in the country, and i got to enjoy a fireworks display and rousing chorus of "o, canada" to finish off the festivities... i love canada, love living here, and am grateful for the family of God in all countries.

    that said, i am thankful i am american. a day like today holds significance not b/c of my celebrations [or, lack thereof, as the case held for me today.], but, in the meaning it represents to me personally. i no longer live in the u.s., and do not know if i will ever live there at any point for the remainder of my life, but, that in no way changes my identity as an american. i love my country.

    i'll head to bed, now. more to write, lots to catch up, hopefully soon.

    ~*

Tuesday, 23 June 2009

Thursday, 11 June 2009

  • here's a little happy::


    ideally, i would personally thank each of my friends who commented on my previous post, but, for now, thank y'all. your expressions of encouragement and helpful suggestions were received with so much gratitude. many of you were right; i was tired. i've been pushing myself in many areas recently. i almost never post when i'm that "low". thoughts about re-establishing my personal journaling habits come to mind as i write, here, feeling as though i burdened people with an unnecessary pity-party. that said, it's nice to know "i'm not the only one.". God is so Good to me, though. i do not deserve the Love and Grace that He pours out on my head, daily. what a privilege to even be called His child.

    let's move on, shall we?

    ::i'm completely inspired tonight by this photoshoot. i love her photography.
    ::jody sent this to me w/ the comment, "if this isn't you, i don't know what is." i'll take one of each dress, please. and, oh, she has a blog. nice.
    ::and an etsy shop.
    ::this cd has been on my list since before my move out west... bekah~* had it in her car yesterday so i got to hear it entirely for the first time. zooey deschanel is a voice i could listen to all day long.
    ::while on the topic, i find her music video for "why do you let me stay here?" so witty and delightfully, charmingly dark. confession:: i love dark humor. i will take black comedy to dirty jokes anyday for the rest of my life. that is, until the turkey vultures arrive...
    ::an article that looks really informative. i will have to read the whole things sometime soon...
    ::one last photoshoot i love, because the subject is adorable, and her natural lighting portraiture is a realistic goal. her post-processing reminds me of bekah~*'s work.


    ~*

Wednesday, 10 June 2009


  • Jesus loves me, this I know
    For the Bible tells me so
    Little ones to Him belong
    They are weak but He is Strong.



    today was a fun day. a relaxing day, in seattle with bekah~*. and i finally met an online friend of many years, sharonfitzsimmons. what a lovely person she is.

    the loveliness of today has delayed an inevitable turn of emotions. i'm spent. the physical toll of the past few months is catching up to me. i saw photos of myself shooting sunday's wedding and wanted to cry. i doubt my creativity and skill and question if God actually wants me to be a photographer.

    right now, i need sleep. tomorrow, i will have my first direct flight in years. i'm so looking forward to the absence of a layover... i might sleep the entire flight.

    right now, i rest in the fact that i belong to Jesus, He loves me, and His Strength is made perfect in my weakness.


    ~*


Tuesday, 09 June 2009

  • check out these pictures!::


    i just finished editing one of my favorite photoshoots ever. i have linked my blog before to my very inspiring friend, melody davis, of melody davis photography. she is such a talent, and one of the sweetest, most down-to-earth beautiful people that walk the face of this earth... i was flattered and a little nervous that she asked me to shoot her family portraits... the day we shot, we had beautiful weather, and mel and her husband eric, of the Left, and their little sprite daughter, lolo, drove out to my neighborhood for their pictures... we played and got creative... mel wanted a "break" from being in charge, leaving the styling up to me. ::armtwist:: okay!... i dressed her in my clothes, and eric wore marks.' shoes... in a very cool twist of events, we learned that eric LOVES vintage motorcycles, and marks. was more than happy to lend eric his bike for some shots... shooting a former model is not hard: mel knows how to be in front of the camera; i learned so much from her. we seriously had so much fun.



















































    there are so many more... hope you enjoy!


    ~*




  • fire stations, life in general::


    this afternoon, marks. and i went to look at a home for sale in our area. if we had the finances, we probably would have purchased it on the spot... the house is patterned off a fire hall, and has a very open, loftlike feel. sooooo neat. i could see the potential as i walked through... it's fun to dream... here's a link for those curious...

    my hair is a big, blonde pouf right now [i always misspell "blond", but, i like it better w/ an "e". rawr.]. somedays, it feels like a wig. happily, because my eyebrows are dark, and with the natural curl, my roots aren't awfully dramatic or anything... i will be going back dark at the end of this month... i want my hair as long as possible for twin~*'s wedding at the end of july, then, i'm planning to get it cut short one more time before i grow it out.

    i have been very tired recently. so much of the past few months is catching up with me... i am multi-tasking like never before... we went to hope, BC, on saturday, w/ steve and pam noordam [jody's brother], who were on vacation in BC and made us their first stop!! we loved showing them around and explored a new place with them, the othello tunnels. sooooo cool. i took my laptop and edited photos on our way back from there... shot my first wedding of the summer, yesterday. it was beautiful and amazing... i have yet to take the photos off my camera, but, i'm pretty excited about them.

    today, i have been preparing for the coming weekend [showers and parties for twin~*!], and consequently, my trip to DC on wednesday... i leave tomorrow for seattle, to spend a long-awaited inspiration day w/ rebekah chapman... photography, good food, good company... i consider that a relaxing day.

    i should pack...


    ~*

Sunday, 07 June 2009

Friday, 05 June 2009

Thursday, 04 June 2009

  • progress...::

    just attempting to focus once again on some things... it will be nice to pull this out again in another month.

    goal/dreams/aspirations::

     

    ~apply to west jet to become a flight attendant

    ~shoot at least two weddings [one on sunday, one booked for july]

    ~run 10k

    ~get my photo albums updated [july '05-'06, all of '08]

    ~move into a house [could be a long-term rental]

    ~sew myself four new dresses of my own [or inspired by favorite designers'] design [i sewed two shirts in march.]

    ~shoot 12 rolls of b/w film

    ~take surfing lessons

    ~successfully carve when snowboarding

    ~do something creative w/ paper

    ~display photos in some form of local art show/fair

    ~paint w/ oils

    ~switch to coke zero/only one a week

    ~read 12 books [the time machine, the curious case of benjamin button, the practice of the presence of God, annie leibowitz at work, celebration of discipline]

    ~finish memorizing james/memorize philippians

    ~become a better swimmer

    ~re-read camera manual for nikon D200

    ~go on a trip w/ marks. by ourselves 

    ~plan at least one day each month to go to downtown vancouver and explore, w/ a friend or by myself.
    ~go strawberry blonde.



    ~*

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    • Birthday: 3/6/1983
    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 9/8/2005

About Me

  • i am tall and distracted, and "The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars..."-jackkerouac~*

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